I havent done this yet but I figured now was the time..
There are a couple of people I wanted to say thanks to, that have helped me so much and possibly dont realise it..
Jees, this is kinda hard but here goes lol.
Errin.
I cant quite put my finger on it but you are kind of like a brother to me that was lost at birth.
I know I have never met you but I feel a bond with you that I dont get very often. For some reason you just seem to know who I am, what I am and why I say and do the things I do without judging me.
When I choose to heed your advice it always helps. When I choose to ignore it I take caution from it. It's so weird because it is almost like you know *ME* better than most of the people I know who see me all the time.
Not just that but it was your advice that has landed me the most identical person to me I have ever met that doesnt have balls.
I cant even describe the thing with Meg, so I wont try. But I know that for the first time in my life I have met the right woman for me, and there have been a fucking good few lol. I have never felt this way about anyone before, even my ex wife and I have you to thank for that for telling me to just be my damn self. Doing so matched me with someone LIKE myself. To the tee, and I never thought by being my brutal mouthy cocky self that it would ever happen.
And the next is to Cecil, who unknowingly said something to me one day that totally changed my life.
"Andy, you cannot lead people to the light because they will shut their eyes and refuse to see it" and you know what? I felt a calm come over me, like finally someone said what I needed to hear when I needed to hear it at the perfect fucking moment in time.
And it stuck, and with that all the anger, sadness and emotion for my ex wife dissapeared and set me free to move on with my life.
I got my shit together, got the fuck out of the last apartment and moved into my new *home* and have a feeling for this place I have yet to feel in America. On that day I no longer tried to make people see reason, or reason with them, I just smiled and walked away when I realised I was wasting my time.
I guess it is because Americans are so uncultured it's untrue. And I am not saying that because I am being spiteful or nasty it's just true.
How many know how to greet a pakistani in their language?
How many know what the colors of the jamaican map picture with the green gold red and black on it mean?
How many know how to curse in indian?
I realised when Cec said that to me that I couldnt make the world see where I was coming from, and it was time to stop wasting my time.
It wasnt just the words he said, it was when he said it and what it meant, almost like he fucking knew that I needed to be told that in a certain way, positively and without pause or bullshit.
It changed my life and who I am forever, for the better.
And to all of you who have not judged me or hated on me for being who I am, thanks.
I am very unusual eccentric and pretty much everything all wrapped up into one and can be difficult to understand, but for those that dont judge me by cover and see the depth I do appreciate it !
Andy
Formal thankyou
Formal thankyou
If you're going through hell keep going
Winston Churchill
"this is the world's most powerfulest high's amp."
Some dumb cunt.
Winston Churchill
"this is the world's most powerfulest high's amp."
Some dumb cunt.
I guess being a old man has its up side after all. Thank you for your kind words